If you are breathing, you are feeling tremendous pressure. Yes, there is the virus, the protests, but no matter what you believe, think, or hold to be true about their implications, something larger is at play: a great negotiation.
Too often, we are too busy to stop and think about how we feel, what we believe, what is in our hearts, and how we want to create the world around us. Right now is that time, so I am making a call to humanity, an assignment, and I encourage you to take this challenge now. The only thing I ask you to do is find your heart, connect deeply with it, and allow the answers to come from there. You have been in your head for so long; it’s time to give the heart a crack at this one. So grab your journal, find a cozy spot, and let’s get to work.
Who do you want to be when you grow up?
When was the last time you allowed yourself to dream of the great version of yourself that you would become someday? Maybe you have a second or third or 50th chance at redefining your place in the world. The universe is begging you to remember who you are. Before all the filters of your life colored the edges of possibility. Before you failed and lost hope that you could succeed at something again. Before the heartbreak, the loss, the devastation, or before you were so exhausted, you couldn’t even remember that there once was a dream. Take a moment to write down who you want to be in this world. It doesn’t have to be a job. It can be a vibration, energy, or a presence of peace. This is your life. What do you want it to mean? What stamp do you want to leave on the world?
What are you afraid of?
Notice what is making you angry, frustrated, or scared, and write down what is beneath that fear. Drill all the way down, and find out if that fear is something you can control or if it’s just part of living. Make a list of the things you can influence, and ask yourself if you can learn to surrender to the discomfort of the uncontrollable and unknowable. Can you allow your heart to feel that fear and uncertainty, and can you ask the energy of love to help you surrender it? What does it feel like to let it go? Who would you be if you were no longer afraid? Who would you be if you could accept the beautiful dance of uncertainty? What are you grasping? What would it feel like to set it all down?
What if everything showing up in this moment was supporting your highest potential?
What if right now is part of a perfectly choreographed dance that allowed you to compare and contrast who you are in the world? What if the people you don’t understand are helping you understand who you are? What would that mean to you? What if by acknowledging what is making you feel uncomfortable, you are receiving the opportunity to heal something deep inside of you? What would that mean about you? Does it make you uncomfortable? Why? Notice again if anger steps up, and if it does, ask why am I so quick to go there? Why has anger become my most treasured emotion? What would it look like if it were okay for everyone to have the right to their thoughts and feelings? The mind will want to answer this one, so make sure to stay in your heart.
Can you forgive someone?
With everything you have just come to realize, can you dive to the center of your heart and do the most powerful work available to all of us right now. Can you forgive someone? Can you call them, write them a letter? Even if you don’t send the message, can you write it down and burn it as a sign of releasing this energy? As part of the great negotiation, we must move forward, and the energy of the past only pulls us into the old paradigm. If you are struggling with this, go back to the second question. What are you afraid of, and is there fear in letting go of this old story? Forgiveness is the deepest gift you give yourself and learning to forgive is not about making past wrongs right, it is about releasing the shackles of pain from your heart.
Now as the final piece of the assignment, what is one thing you can do right now to love yourself more deeply? What is a simple thought or phrase you can say, a small action or step you can take? What does it look like to act from a deep place of love for yourself?
I am thinking of you all now. I am holding you in your highest possibility—perhaps the possibility you have forgotten was there. I am reminding you to come home to yourself. I am offering you an opportunity to make peace with your fear, dance with forgiveness, and allow your heart to heal. I am reminding you that love is your true home and that you are never alone when you remember that the universe is always here for you. I hope this assignment has been helpful, and if you feel inspired to share it with those close to you, perhaps you can even have a little discussion around what has opened up.